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Wagwan Nappyboos,

Long time no gwan here on the blog. After almost 365 days around the sun again, we’re older, wise and smarter, I’d like to believe. How has 2019 been for you? I’d very much like to read your experience in the comments below because I’m about to nutshell my year 2019 in this post.


My 2019 was aaaammmaaazzz-


Actually I think everything that happens to me is amazing, a fun habit I’ve grown, thanks to my super optimistic outlook on life. But that’s not how life truly is all the time innit?



Photography: Aghogho Otega

Growth is a very beautiful phenonenum. We all live for it.

2019, the year of  living my Truth. It was also a year of many firsts for me.


Truth be told my year 2019 was extremely peaceful. This was my year of accepting many truth about myself, and making new choices based on those truths. I think this is in order because I’ve heard people say as you grow older you become more accepting about things you cannot change in life. I guess that’s also why it’s difficult for older people to change habits or form new ones. Regardless of what they say, I’m in my own lane as usual. Here’s how my 2019 was different from yours,


In 2019,

-January: Moved back home to Lagos from living and working in New York for 2years. Loced my Mushu (Natural Hair).Wrote my first children’s book, launched on amazon THE BLACK BEETLE AND THE MEANING OF LIFE

-February: Design and Product developed for Nappyese. Introduced and marketed Nuskin products and business building opportunity (to you I presume :), Nappy-Thrift Pop Up/Meet&Greet



-March: Worked on and created my first single


-April: Moved into my own apartment on Lagos Island

-May: Performed my music for the first time

Ese Otobo Performance at Vibe Tribe Collective Anniversary

-June: Worked on More Music: 4 more singles, Marketed Nappyoga service



-July: Worked on and created my first headwrap collection and Yoga fitness wear

-August: Visualized, wrote and developed a business plan for Nappyese, created lots of supporting brand content and sought grants

-Jan-September: For the first time in 7years, I lived my best slow paced life, not worrying about being judged my the way I look to earn a living, not having to face rejection from brands and clients based on the way that I look, not having to run from casting to casting and stand in line with numerous girls trying to book the same job, not having to deal with racist clients, discriminating jealous angry bookers, not having to worry about my weight, being able to eat what I want. Went to the beach, roller skated for the first time, made new friends that actually care about supporting one another goals, yay me!

-October: Exporting my head wraps for the first time to some amazing Nappyboos in the U.S ( they know themselves)


-November: Visiting Senegal for the first time. Made new Business Partner&Guarantor. Performing my first EP Listening. Started my new book.

-December: Taught yoga at my new Nappyoga space. Got a new Kitten called Nuka Bo.



It was hard remembering to write down all the things I was grateful for like we planned to do with the challenge, simply because there is always so much to be thankful for. I’d be writing or hours everyday and that would be painful, but see how I listed my big wins above? I clearly remember them even without writing them down prior, and that’s how it is when you meditate on gratitude everyday

All in all the challenge was really easy for me, I have been living in the attitude of gratitude these past 7 years while my life has changed drastically season after season. Even in the dry times, gratitude kept me afloat. They say it take 7 years of constitency for one to become a master of something. Guess you can call me a master of Gratitude. This year abundance flowed, Everything I touched worked out and yielded fruit, strangers I didn’t know from Adam did things for me, worked with me, supported me. I don’t remember a single moment this year when I felt worry or fear about starting out my life choices all over again in Lagos, and so far everything has worked out well.

Ese Otobo performing at INNER PEACE EP LISTENING #nappyesemusic #gratitude

Ese Otobo performing at INNER PEACE EP LISTENING #nappyesemusic

Gratitude increased my boldness and bravery, allowing me to march into territories I’ve never been on before (like recording and performing my own songs)  knowing fully well that even if it didn’t work out (which it always will) I still have a lot of many other little things in life to be grateful for.  

Gratitude taught me patience and endurance during the times when I cried this year from the stress of growing pains and re-adjusting to create a new system for myself and my brand (Lagos Living ain’t easy)

Gratitude gave me hope, for when I remember the small things, I know I can reach the big things too!

Did you live in an attitude of gratitude this year? Did you join the challenge? Do you notice changes? How did your life change?


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Wagwan Nappyboo!

Welcome to another #nappystyle post. Seeing as it keeps getting wilder ouchea in nappyland, I say we keep up the altè vibes from the last style post yah?

Do check that out before you keep reading this one so you don’t get too lost hehe. Because your mind about to get blow outta here

A Rainy Summer in Femme Luxe


My amazing nappyboos on the nappygram already know that I have new style accessory collection for sale. I took the liberty of styling them alongside the pieces from Femme Luxe cos #nappystyle

We’ve also upped the ante to bring you moving visual moving content! So if you enjoy this post, support the nappy-hustle and share it with your friends.

Femme Luxe on this one again! Yaga!!

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Yesterday was best day eeeevvuuuuurrrrrrrr!!!!! 💃🏾 The Universe sent me a sign🥳And I am so grateful! So while shooting some content at Freedom park for my new single with #nappyboss Ekene, this here stray pussy-cat came over to show me some loooveee. I wished he was my cat but he’s not🤧. Ask all my friends how, I’ve been wanting to get a cat since I moved back to Lagos (just so I can ground myself and not move anytime soon😂 and also to chase the mice away from my new place) but I literally cannot afford one right now. Let this story blow your mind! Because I asked the Universe to send me a sign and she did. I was so excited and grateful for this love, plus this pussy bout to become famous. Watch out for my New Video dropping soon 💥💥💥💥 I hope I blow too💥💫⭐️🌟🔥✨🌪⚡️🌈 #nappylife #lagosliving #newcontentcoming #nappyshoot #animallover #nappyese

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ALTÈ THOUGHTS: Yeah, back to the woes of blogging neh. So the lens my precious SONY A5000 finally gave up on me, so I had to improvise with my iPhone 7. Anything to get the job done fam!!



I had so much fun shooting these outfits at Freedom Park here in Lagos, it was my first time there. So much fun that I didn’t even remember to show how it ties nicely in front but see how beautifully it drapes behind me?  Basically this dress is a 2-in-1 if you ever want to go for that super sexy look but still trow in a tad bid of modesty, then you can let the wraps hang like I did here. Guaranteed to have your date tripping regardless



 This dress is so hot that as soon as I put it on, a stray pussy-cat from nowhere wanted in on the shoot too hahaha. It literally followed me around to give me love y’all! It was surreal. We (me and #nappyboo Chidera) named him Ray (like Stray minus ST). He was definitely an extra ray of sunshine on this day.






I styled this sexy number with my Bisi Nappywrap for that modern retro African gyal look you know Nappyese is all about. I really think big hoops are having another hot moment in style right now, so my double cowrie hoops finished my look! I’d say I’m ready for a dinner date and hit the club dancing right after. Wouldn’t you?

ALTÈ THOUGHTS: My life right now y'all!! I asked the Universe to send me a sign that I'm really not crazy for quitting my miserable internationally signed modeling life for intentional freelance modeling and riding out this creative life and she literally did with Little Ms Ray here!!!! I mean what are the odds that our shoot would became literally so much more alive on a very ordinary day of trying to get things done?? I would never have been able to cuddle ray into this content if I was a different shhoot with creatives who do not enjoy life as spontaneously as I do. We'z liiiiiiiit fam!


 I’m really excited about this dress and I can’t wait to get some new killer red bottom pumps (a girl can dream) and slay this dress at my next business meeting. I love how the deep v-cut makes room for decolotagè display. I have some pretty broad shoulders complete for my tall fine ass and no better way to show them off in a smart classy way than in this dress. Femme luxe really knows how to pop a queens curve!





ALTÈ THOUGHTS: Life as creative entrepreneur is an expensive one period. Like all process it involves many things and people to create the big picture. Thus it the responsibly of every creative entrepreneur to make sure that the costs of running his/her business is not burning the backend. As in sufficient budget for every creative process. Your boo manned up and asked Femme Luxxe to step it up a notch extra for us. I want to go all in for them and us and give my best creatively  because I really like this brand. I do hope they respond positively







Femme Luxe Lounge wear set is everything and more, their co ords are so classy! So comfortable it makes for a perfect day wear. I particularly like the modern pattern here and simple color scope of this set. Pair with pumps or flats depending on your mood or the occasion. It makes a great day lounge wear set I also really like how this cut sits on me, of course it will differ slightly as per body type. 

I styled it here with my Green Angelina Nappywrap, Cowrie money Chocker and Double cowrie hoops. You can shop my accessories simply by connecting with me on WhatsApp here: ShopNappyeseWhatsapp. These leather black pumps are also for sale.


ALTÈ THOUGHTS: Baby's getting thickè yo! I told y'all on twitter, my ass got fat. A sis be truly living her best creative life! Outchea making the dream work by her own standards. Why y'all never told me this is how nice it gets when your living ya best life :) And Femme Luxe be outchea bringing out a girls curve, go curves go!!!




This piece is about to become a fav of mine. I’ve wanted to own these pants at the back of my mind and here they are finally in real life. Clearly I was on my #nappyoga issh here. I wanted to show you how nice and stretchy these pants are, not constricting at all. I styled with my Fashion nova top plus Nneoma Nappywrap to give the look a pop of color! Simple, yet sexy and chique. Trade in my court shoes for some red Vinyl ankle boots and I’m ready for the next music festival!!


Femme luxe is really showing up and out. Click on all the images and the links on this post to shop any of the item you see here. They are already packaged and ready to be shipped to you wherever you are in the world. I would like to also remind you here that 10% of every Nappyese purchase goes towards orphaned African children of the Nappy Kids Foundation. Our Nappyese business runs on the principle that if you’re blessed enough to receive plenty from God the Universe you should actively give back to the less privileged. The more you give, the more that comes back to you.

So wotcyu saying boo? Are you feeling these pieces or what? Oya feel free to talk your own altè late thoughts in the comment box below

ALTÈ THOUGHTS: *drum roll please* Ahem, so I've decided that the pre-tease release of my official music videos will be short fashion videos filled with all the love, light and rainbows of style you can ever imagine! These are humble beginnings fam!! Stick with me cos we bout to run this sis!!! #breaktheinternet. Peep the star of this here video: A Pussy called Ray

Share it and lets to make him viral! Enjoy!!












A Rainy Summer in Femme Luxe

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Lagos living is Lit! And guess what made even lit-ter. Oops! Pardon the puns…

Waking up one beautiful day to Femme Luxe’s email was something of a nice surprise from the Universe. Although, I have collaborated with brands more than a few times on sponsored posts, tbh this one came out of the blues. You’d be surprised I actually ignored the mail for about a week because I didn’t think it would work due to the fact I lived in Lagos, but then they sent me another one mail reminder and I gave it a shot.

ALTÉ FEELINGS: Ahem! Before we get into that, It's been a while since I've shared a style story so I Feel I need to revamp our conversation theme. When I started writing and doing blog posts, I took great pride in it. I enjoyed it a lot, along the line my posts got really quick and direct to the point because I got confused with numbers, so shorter post meant more time to write more and share yes ??  NEWSLETTERS, HAIR, SKIN, TRAVEL AND FITNESS, YOUTUBE AND INSTAGRAM CONTENT Whew! Photo and video content! It got pretty overwhelming for only me after a while

Long story short Femme Luxe arrived at my local post office and I went to pick it up not believing my luck. Certainly, I was skeptical on the chances of it arriving but here in Lagos. Luckily my cousin asked me to give it a shot. I’m glowing from ear to ear as I write this because it mean Nigeria actually works. So proud.




Snake Short Sleeve Boxy Loungewear Set – Lacy


A few weeks back, can you imagine me almost buying an over priced snake patterned leggings a few weeks ago, thank God I didn’t because now look at God. I look everywhere and I see snake print. Have you noticed too? Move over cat family, the reptiles are here. I paired this comfy set with my snake skin boots, for that head to toe rock perfect for rainy weather or even a warm evening. The material used to make this wear is nice and stretchy and comfortable on the skin.



Pink Satin Cowl Neck Bodycon Midi Dress – Clarence

Pink Satin Cowl Neck Bodycon Midi Dress – Clarence

The day I picked up the package, I got invited to a bachelors party. And I wore this sexy number. Trust me when I say, this dress is a show killer and stopper and leave it there. It’s perfect for a special night out, making you feel sexy and classy a the same time. It’s made with quality material, even thought its tight, I’m not afraid it’s going to rip apart at any sudden moment. I paired it with my head(nappy)wrap for that African regal pink action. Wotcyu say boo? Are ya feeling this look?

Dress size: 8-10



Black Slinky Front Tie Two Piece Set – Kia

Can you tell a pattern here with my style?

>>>>>>>>>>>> I’m all for the two piece sets. I like how easy and breezy this outfit is. Even though the size 8 I ordered didn’t really fit my tall torso and legs, I am definitely loving the front tie cut and the flared pants. Now who wants a giveaway?? Yup! You heard right boo. I’m giving away this lucky number to one very lucky boo of mine. Could that be you?? 

Follow my @nappyese on Instagram and turn on my post for notifications because I will be giving away this gorg set! All giveaway details will be on the nappygram!

ALTÈ THOUGHTS: PS: No heels were ruined in the making of this shoot, psych !

Camel Crop Jumper Loungewear Set – Deanna

Earth tones are my thing and its obvious its Femme luxe’s thing too yaaay! I fell in love with this Jumper sweat the minute I saw it. I love the way it bares my décolletage. Don’t you?

Also very comfy and semi-loose fitting. Not tight or constructing at all.


Would you shop with Femme Luxe? What do you like about each of these outfits? I think my favorite thing about the lounge wear set is that it’s perfect to keep warm during the wet rainy season of Lagos Nigeria.


-Model: @juliaeseotobo

-Photgrahper: @ekenenwonye


ALTÉ THOUGHTS: Shout out to my amazing friend and photographer Ekene aka Nappybo$$ Ekene, who took some time to help make the dream work and welcome to the team. Let's see what he thinks about the outfits. Ekene leave a comment below on your opinion and let the world know how much fun this was.

Thanks for reading, I hope you enjoyed this post, please also enjoy the shopping links. More style post on Femme Luxxe to come soon. Please leave any question or comments below

PS: If you're new here or just in case you haven't got the gist is far, this is a sponsored post because I get to keep these amazing outfits. Even though it is sponsored, they totally fit my style; Comfort and Elegance, and I add my culture with my nappywrap!




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Have you ever wanted to move but not for show?

Have you ever wanted to move not for sexual advances?

Have you ever wanted to move just for yourself?


When my awareness of Yoga became complete (pun) I had a simple thought:

I love to dance and so I will integrate alongside these Asanas and I will call her NAPPYOGA

And thus Nappyoga was born.


Nappyoga is simply identifying what area of your body needs to be breathe and expand and become aware of it with music, movement and breath. Take me for example, My right heel needs me to breathe and release more space into it as a result of trauma caused by years of abuse from my modeling career Which actually ended up affecting the right side of my spine; Its a word we call ‘scoliosis’ So I focus mentally on this area as I get lost to the music and move.

The whole concept of Yoga is movement, so you can enjoy this class without restrictions of Asanas or mentally having to register a dance move.



Enough talk. See you in class. If you’re early enough, you’ll get to add your favorite song to the playlist!




EVERY 2ND and 4TH THURSDAY OF THE MONTH at Bailamos Dance Studio, Lekki Phase 1

PRICE: N2500


See Online Booking Page,Times and Schedules


Phone: +234 701 4071794 to book a class

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Our Tibetan singing bowl was purchased in Rishikesh, in between the mountains of Northern India.

You may have watched the cute video:  Taraji P. Henson Teaches Jimmy to Meditate with Tibetan Singing Bowls

Or lucky enough to have glimpsed this video in passing where  Jhene aiko plays the crystal singing bowl(meditation)

Singing bowls are quite popular in meditation for healing and relaxation purposes and we can wait for you to experience it. More healing sounds will be introduced on our journey…

Check out what Very Well Mind has to say about these Himalayan Bowls:

READ: The Benefits of Tibetan Singing Bowls

See you in Class!



See Online Booking Page


Phone: +234 701 4071794 to book a class

or WhatsApp +1 646 209 3049



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Exciting news!!

Our baby brand has grown bigger!! Have you had a chance to explore our brand New NAPPYESE SHOP yet? Go and do so right now and come back for more of this exciting News!

*drum Roll please…*

I am so pleased to announce that NAPPYESE is now partnered with an award winning American Brand Nuskin to you the best of natural based, health, beauty and skin care world!! Whats more? Our About page is updated too! NAPPYESE is steadily rising to greater and greater heights as the vision becomes clearer

To sit here and write all the amazing pros this company is bringing to the table is to write an eternal blog post! haha So instead, at your utmost convenience link here to read more on NUSKIN.

But first, permit me to tell you a little about the company.


“Why Nuskin products? What makes them better than the rest? Why should I buy from you?”

Well here’s some easy answers…


✘ Nuskin products are animal cruelty free! Nuskin does not test on animals. 

✘ Nuskin products are made using natural key ingredients, combined with top science getting the best of both worlds! You are not putting harsh chemicals on your skin! ⚠️


️✘ You’re not paying for a ‘name’, you’re paying for quality.
Too many people are paying high prices for popular branded names when these products are actually clogging their pores, filled with all sorts of dodgy ingredients, and aren’t benefitting their skin! ❌


✘ Nuskin has over 35+ years of science behind them, over 75 scientists (PhD level) work on their products everyday. Nuskin has won numerous awards from beauty to technology and innovation. They are leading in their field and get recognised constantly by top magazines, articles and nominated for so many annual award shows! 


✘ This company gives back to people. They created MULTIPLE organisations including ‘Nourish the Children’ which so far has given over 600 million meals to the worlds most malnourished children. You can be a part of this! Learn more about Nourish the Children and Force for Good 


✘ And most importantly – NUSKIN PRODUCTS WORK. You can see real visible results almost instantly  They are the DIFFERENCE DEMONSTRATED!


So those things considered, why NOT our products? 

Working these past months with Nuskin has been a great learning experience. All of this growth NAPPYESE is experiencing is partly due to their presence in my Universe. There’s no need to imagine because its already here! Our small natural hair blog now of 2013, slowly morphing into an Amazon of natural and natural based& cruelty free skin and health care ASHÈ and first on board is NUSKIN!


As you may know from the NappyGram, these past 4 months has had me trying a variety of the Nuskin products and I have to say that I am impressed with their quick and definite results, were has this brand been all our lives?

This new collaboration enables me to make brand-new and wonderful product available to you and even at discounted rates too

Calling all Skin care Lovers..

There is so much more I want to share with you on this great opportunity, but I will save it for a next blog post. I can’t keep secrets from you so I will go ahead and say right now that this partnership involves you too!

Ssshh! That’s all for now. Until next time!




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Happy New Year my Nappyboo!


Welcome to 2019!! Our year of shmoneyy, abundance and gratitude!!!!

I started off the year right by going to a Vinyasa yoga donation based class right in my neighborhood of the Bronx. And now I am munching down on my freshly prepared Nigerian Jollof rice with sweet plantains fried by my lovely roomate whom I am intensely grateful for on my first day of gratitude 🙂

So we ended 2018 with gratitude by counting down 10days into the New Year! And I realized, hang on, I am not ready to stop this. Writing down my feeling of gratitude on my instagram grid was very very refreshing and helped me feel very very good. Yes I am writing ‘very’ twice and its intentional because I can’t emphasize enough! Writing what I am grateful for each day has literally helped me push my negative emotions even further down the black hole all because I have that one ray of gratitude to focus on and compare it to!!! And boy do I have plenty to be grateful for



I consider myself to be a very grateful person, but I have not tasked myself till now to be dedicated to meditating on gratitude day in and day out. This my beautiful nappyboo is the purpose of this challenge.

Every great leader who knows secrets to the Universe will tell you time and time again that gratitude is truly the way to bring in more abundance. Did you see my list for what I chose for myself 2019? I am definitely going to be needing some gratitude to ground me as I get these here nappy bags for 2019. I said to myself, I want to be a rich as Rhianna by 25. I turn 25 in 18days!! Am I anywhere near achieving this goal? YES!! (by faith) and I have 364 days more to bring it into reality!!

I would love for you to join me on this challenge! Let me be your guide and let’s walk the walk of gratitude 2019 together and keep each other accountable to feeling good!


The only rule to this challenge is that you write out clearly whatever it is you are grateful for somewhere where you can see it often. And I think for all of us this pace is on our mobile phones.

How many hours a day do we spend on social media, blog and everywhere else focusing our energy into watching peoples lives? Sometimes wishing we had the things they have?  

Therefore I would highly suggest that we all take at least 15-30 mins a day writing up a beautiful post of gratitude and posting it on you instagram or facebook wall #365daysofGratitude2019 and tag @nappyese in it. Involve your friends and family because this is beneficial for everyone!!

Tag your Family and Friends!

Tag mention them in your comments under every of your post and be proud that you are being a positive influence in their life. I cannot imagine right now where we will be in our lives with God the Universe after we fill up our emotional being with with 365 days of being thankful for every little thing. I promise you it will be right there with all of our good heart desires.


Just Write it!

Just write whatever positive feeling you have towards gratitude no matter ho small or how silly or unworthy you think it is, it counts! because every positive emotion counts! And it dosen’t have to be things from the present, you can write down past experiences that also made you feel good and manifest those feelings again!! I will be your guide through this Gratitude Walk 2019 so don’t worry! we have each other to keep accountable. 365 days is a long time, but by the time we are done our gratitude muscle will be so huge!! That we will be living very much in the magic of life! I will also follow up with quarterly posts to re-reiterate and how we are doing.

I am excited!!!! What do you think of this ideas. Is it a fun challenge? What do you think we will learn?

Are you ready?? One………, Two……….,




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This year I made friends and lost, and found and kept many beautiful souls.. This year I learned that nothing is permanent and I learned to let my emotions be as fluid as the river as stormy as the seas, as loud as thunder as quiet as rain. This year I learned my final lesson of trusting my instincts, never to doubt again!

I’ve learnt to drown out the voices of wayward spirits, and never let them around my fire. I’ve learnt to endure the lessons and understand which the Universe has tasked me to master within myself as I encounter all these different energies on my path. I’ve learnt to be patient but never endure the brunt of somebody’s dark cloud.

I’ve learnt to enjoy who I really am. To put down the mask, and I made new friends who pushed me towards this and ihelped me realize that every part, dimension and facet of me is beautiful. I am so grateful for abundance. I am ready to step into my light 🙂

Allowing myself to be and exist this year without the pressure or limitations of goals allowed me to gravitate around what I would do naturally, and I did many great things. I went all the way to India for the first time on my own, I studied yoga for 44 whole days. I kicked out my very toxic agents from my heart, mind soul and life. I signed with new agents in LA who are as excited for me as I am of them. I was on billboards all over New York City and other states and worked with more than a few big brands on American soil on international campaigns at airports all over the world

I did brave things like get people together and taught yoga, visited yoga studios for a yoga teaching job and actually got hired in one. The Maxim Cover girl competition taught me a lot about myself, my hardworking, resilience, level of motivation, prepeardness  and new heightened sense of my leadership and communal skills. I gave fearlessly to strangers whom I haven’t over the internet and learnt to let my love flow from afar. I learnt to love my nappyboos 🙂  I volunteered to work with children from abused homes. I got engaged in a toxic relationship and became unengaged. I sang in the subways on New York city, twice!

I learnt to give my energy to only those who can reciprocate and deserve it. I learnt to block people and toxic energies out of my life and walk away.

I experienced a homelessness within and around that help me release a lot of my baggage emotionally spiritually and physically, letting vain and toxic people walk gently out of my life and found a couple people who truly see me for my soul. I remembered who I am again and I choose now and forever to operate and choose only from my heart every single thing that pertains to my life. I learnt to be ok with being and living alone. I learnt  love myself completely!



  • Make Friends who vibe like I do
  • A creative team
  • A Pink Mercedes Jeep
  • Design Nappyese Int Complex in Lagos
  • My registered Business
  • Business Plan, with Target Audience.
  • 1M Instagram followers
  • 1M Youtube followers
  • 1M dollars in my bank account
  • Travel to Brazil
  • Get Paid to Tour Africa starting with collecting heritage information of pre-colonized style and fashion, holistic way of living, Nigerian history and her connection with other African roots and preserve it
  • Design my own house and Estate
  • Register an NGO for Children
  • Travel to South India for Yoga
  • Swim with Dolphins
  • Allow myself to fall in love
  • A solo Album
  • Be the goodest influencer on the Lagos scene
  • 3 collabs my solo album with Busy Signal, Patoranking and Fiona Apple
  • No pain in my feet for the whole year
  • Strenght in body mind and soul and everything I apply myself too. tired or not
  • Softness in my body mind and soul and everything I apply mysel to
  • Write a book
  • Start my book on my travels: Confessions of a Traveling Intorvert (subject to change)
  • Date a gourgeous man with a beautiful soul who see the world as I do
  • Go on a boat cruise with him
  • Travel to an island with him
  • Start a reading group for children
  • Support my friends
  • Support my man
  • Never be alone on every holiday
  • Develop my own sustainable body suit line and tee shirt line.
  • Perform at Top Bars in Lagos
  • Go on Tour
Wagwan my Nappyboos! It’s a whole new year to me, the first of many forever more. What are your goals for this year?
Are you going to have a wing year like I did for 2018 and allow yourself space to get to know who you really are without pressure?
Or are you already grown and are crystal clear about the things you like, what are they? Care to share?

Wats gwan for 2019?? Let us know in the comments below. God blessings and speed into the New Year and see you the other side 🙂
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My documentary ‘Black Hair’ speaks about growing up as a predominantly African woman in a whitewashed and Eurocentric Caribbean society. I address racism, hair-shaming, and overcoming adversity by cutting off my hair in this 20-minute film.



* First your first and last name and location.

My name is Gabriella Bernard and I live in Trinidad & Tobago, located in the Caribbean.


* Can you walk us through what was going through your head when that incident happened? What were you thinking and feeling as they were doing the hair and as you were asking them to consider alternatives?

At first, I was very determined to go home because my hair meant the most to me, and I told the producers that upfront on my application form. It took me about 30 minutes of crying and thinking to finally get to the decision that I made. I felt the need to expressly state my opinion and stand up for myself because truly I believe in promoting natural beauty and there were alternate methods that could have been taken to get my hair straight (wig, weave, blowout, keratin, flat iron). Furthermore, it is a Caribbean show and it is sending a message that we should conform to Eurocentric standards, as perpetuated by every other TV show, movie, magazine cover or whatever it may be, that tells young black women, and the world for that matter, that black people with kinky curly hair are not as good as unblemished porcelain white skin with perfectly straight blonde hair. That the beauty standard is something that we as ‘unfavorable’ black people could never achieve in this lifetime, lest we use cake soap and chemical relaxers. And then EVEN THEN when we conform, we will never be ‘truly’ as beautiful as what we have been brainwashed to believe is the standard. Especially in the context of Jamaica, where the film was produced, where it has been reported time and time again that skin bleaching is a common trend, what sort of message are you perpetuating as an industry leader? It broke my heart and shattered everything I knew when I realized someone who I had looked up to so much would do something as mentally damaging as chemically relaxing my natural hair that I had taken 3 years to grow. The decision stood even after I had told them I had it straight for most of my life and when I decided to go natural I loved myself more for embracing who I am as God intended… I had 2 options: conform and see what success I could achieve, possibly winning a contract to be an international model, something that I have always dreamed and prayed for, or break away and see how this may have been detrimental to my career. I had already left my job, I always looked up to Wendy, modeling was everything for me, and I came to compete… I had to go all the way or forever ask myself ‘what if?’ Though I mentally made the decision, I spent about 10 minutes disassociated from the world, mentally disconnecting myself from my hair and what I was about to do. My hair has always been a part of my identity, and as women, we know all too well how much emotion we have attached to our hair. My hair has always been part of my identity. I had my pretty little girl phase, then I shaved half of it off, I grew it back out and processed it straight. When I decided I was finally going to go natural I went out with a bang by dying my hair blue, purple and blond. I knew it would get damaged but it would be able to grow out. I’ve always expressed myself through my hair, and now they were going to take away something that I had groomed for so long, which was more to me than ‘just hair’, take it all away in a second. And chemical relaxers are permanent, I’m not sure if everyone understands that part, but it’s not something that can be reversed and I had to cut off all my hair after the show because it was now permanently straight and damaged…

The feeling of being stripped of my personality, my uniqueness, like Sampson without his hair…

* When you looked at yourself in the mirror after it happened, what were you feeling?

When I looked in the mirror, I saw the 16-year old version of myself watching me back in disappointment. I had lived most of my conscious life with straight hair and at 16 I wished I had the guts to go natural. I hoped that it would all be worth it in the end… but we all know I came 3rd. My reaction, however, was pure acting. I knew that I couldn’t be the girl who kicked up a fuss in the salon AND sulked over her makeover that she didn’t want to do in the first place. I told myself to let go of my emotions until after the show, and I gave it my best – my all, to try and win the competition. I was determined and I sacrificed a lot, DOWN TO MY HAIR, for a CHANCE to win, and came out deeply disappointed. If I knew then what I know now, I would have definitely walked off, or not have signed up at all. But at that moment, I was too close to my dreams to let it slip through my fingers.


* Is your hair still affected by the treatment they used?

My hair is somewhat affected – some parts haven’t grown into their curls just yet and are straighter than other parts. This is also attributed to previous years of chemical relaxing and I noticed that from the first time I cut my hair.


* What’s been your response to the continued interest at this moment on social media? Were you surprised by the support and reactions?

I was genuinely surprised by the reaction and support received from 95% of people on social media. I didn’t think that people would get it and I feared that it would be perceived negatively and seen as unimportant because I was dismissed so casually in real life, but people went through the same emotions as I did on the set, it seems! So many people were touched and started to reach out to me from other parts of the Caribbean, the US, the UK, Australia, and various countries across Africa and Asia. They shared their stories with me and I am so glad that we are having a global conversation about the reevaluation of the beauty standard. Beauty comes in all shades, shapes, sizes, and cannot be contained by 1 set of standards alone. More and more people are finally loving themselves for who they are and being comfortable in their own skin. I don’t understand why anyone would be against that, but I am so appreciative for those who understand the overarching message and are supporting my efforts. I hope that they too are living their most authentic version of themselves and creating change in their own lives and communities.



More and more people are finally loving themselves for who they are and being comfortable in their own skin


* What about that moment ultimately inspired you to keep fighting and speaking out?

The feeling of being stripped of my personality, my uniqueness, like Sampson without his hair… I don’t want anyone to ever have to go through that to learn the lesson that I did. I want people to continue to stand up for themselves despite what other people may say because they don’t have similar experiences. Our black ancestors before us did not stand up and fight for us to come in this modern day and age to yield to outdated, colonial rules. So many times people have ridiculed me for my hair, on the street, at work or professional settings, and at school… So many times people have been racist or prejudiced towards me because of the color of my skin or how my hair grows up to the sky. So many times I have been affected because of society’s twisted misconceptions and stereotypes that are casted upon us and eventually accepted. This time, I say no more. As I continue to live my truth, I will prove to myself and everyone else that I am a professional, that I am beautiful, that I am competent of doing anything that I put my mind to. I refuse to let my skin color and hair texture ‘hold me back’ from these opportunities in my life, because they are not an evaluation tool of my professionalism, capabilities or intelligence.



* What do you hope viewers at home might learn from what you went through and your response?

I hope that viewers at home will see that it is okay to stand up for yourself… I sacrificed all my hair, and for what? I did everything I could to appease the judges, but all in vain. Social media quickly took to Instagram to voice that I was robbed when I was eliminated. You see, we can change ourselves to fit someone else’s mold, but that does not mean that we will be liked or accepted. It’s only wisdom that can now allow me to look back and say that I wished I stood my ground. I would have both my dignity and my hair. I feared that others would judge me and say that I was truly an unprofessional model for walking off the show. But I’ve learnt that the most important opinion is the one you have of yourself… Always stand your ground; do not yield.

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I REFUSE TO LET ANYONE TELL ME HOW TO BE BEAUTIFUL. I am pleased to announce that a 20 minute documentary that I have starred in and directed alongside @trinidadandtobagorocks has been selected to screen at @ttfilmfestival! Hair is more than "just hair" and living in a society that idolizes Eurocentric features and demonizes African features makes it that much harder trying to live my truth in all my melanin glory. Join me as I open up about racist incidents, living my truth, being whitewashed as a cheap reality show stunt, and still overcome it, all the while cutting off that trashy, outdated, straight hair and starting over my natural hair journey AGAIN. I will be counting on YOUR support to help me win the People's Choice Award 🏆🏅. FYI: Research shows there has been a 40% decline in relaxer sales over the past 8 years. It ain't a fad or a style. BIH, IT'S A MOVEMENT. ✊🏽✊🏽✊🏽 — — Pre-lime 🍤🍻: Fri Sep 7 @ Drinks Bistro, Woodbrook from 7pm — — Airing dates 🎬: Fri 21 Sept, 5.00pm, The University of the West Indies ** Fri 21 Sept, 6.00pm, MovieTowne POS Screen 8, Q+A ** Mon 24 Sept, 4.00pm, MovieTowne Tobago ** Tue 25 Sept, 6.00pm, MovieTowne San Fernando — — Photo Creds: Model: @gabigabz_ Designer: @benecaribe Photographer: @moderndaycaveman Art Director: @rackedstudios — — #model #international #caribbean #ttfilmfestival #trinidadfilmfestival #film #documentary #naturalhair #natural #melanin #queen #straighthairissotrashy #overit #movement

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* I noticed that you’re working on an upcoming documentary and continuing to use your social media as a way to speak out against what happened. Why is it important for you to continue this mission? What’s your ultimate hope with sharing words of encouragement regarding hair and calling for change?


My documentary ‘Black Hair’ speaks about growing up as a predominantly African woman in a whitewashed and Eurocentric Caribbean society. I address racism, hair-shaming, and overcoming adversity by cutting off my hair in this 20-minute film. It has been screened at the Say It Loud Film Festival in Washington DC in July, the Trinidad & Tobago Film Festival in September, The Baltimore International Black Film Festival in Maryland from Oct 2-8, the ArtCity Film Festival in Cameroon in Oct, and Kurlz on Film in Los Angeles in Spring 2019. I’ve also started a GoFundMe to submit my documentary to festivals across the world so that people can hear my story: http://www.bit.ly/blackhairdonate 100% of funds will go towards paying submission fees to enter the film, which is currently estimated at USD$3,100. My message is important because it is not just about hair. My message is letting people know that they should live their lives being comfortable in their own skin, in their own appearance, and that we need to look past colonial remnants in our culture that tell us ‘white is best and only white is best’ If all races, particularly the white race, could come together and agree that we are all equal and treat each other equally, we could live in a much better, more advanced society. We have so much more in common than what ‘separates’ us. The sooner we realize that the sooner we can evolve into a more loving era of humanity.

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If the Caribbean had a flavour it would taste like me 👅😈 — — Model: @gabriellabernard_ Photography: @refiic Designer: @dominichutch — — 🍃 🍃 🍃 🍃 🍃 🍃 🍃 🍃 🍃 🍃 — — #fashion #runway #editorial #natural #melanin #beautiful #caribbean #model #internationalmodel #scoutme #fordmodelsscout #wlyg #imgmodelscout #lordeincscouting #jagmodels #makemeamuse #willyscouts #scoutmetier1mm #emgmodels #iamscouted #gilleonsmithcasting #wespeakthisisme #scoutmesilent #models1scout #mc2scouting #elmsquad #be1scoutme #bodylondon #bikini #caribbean — @bellaagency @elitenyc @elite_london @statemgmt @fusionmodelsnyc @suprememgmt @nextmodels @dnamodels @dnkmodels @ethnicitymodels @chocomediamodels @theindustryny @abbeylynnmodels @pridemodelmanagement @megamodelbrasil @gadalmodels @crawfordmodels @megamodelbahia @niiagency @noagency.nyc @managementartists @midlandagency @immmodels @elevenmodelmgmt @newyorkmodels @womenmanagementny @major_scouts @qmodels @mahogany_models @mandpmodels @bma_models @marqueemodels @leo.alderman @stettsmodelmgmt @clavonmodels @shlegel_daria @mmgtalent @theindustryla @lookmodels_germany

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* What other things do you have planned in the wake of this? Are you still modeling? Do you still want to continue talking about this in the future? What are your goals?

I want to continue spreading my message of self-love and positivity. I am still modeling and ultimately I would be elated to become an internationally signed model and walk for Victoria’s Secret. However, I haven’t put all my eggs in one basket and I am also focusing on my background in Marketing and Events Management. I definitely want to continue being an activist for change and I am currently involved in community development programmes in Trinidad & Tobago. I plan to use my influence and education to eventually become a person with political power in the future, such as the Prime Minister of Trinidad & Tobago. We can do a lot to get our economy back on its feet with people who think as progressively as I do, and want to see an actual improvement of the nation. Especially in the wake of the dying oil industry, there are several things that we can do. We can invest in sustainable energy for a greener and cleaner future, especially having the luxury of living on an island that sees an abundance of sun, wind and natural waves for the majority of the year. We can also implement a refugee programme for the Venezuelans coming across to the country whereby they can find shelter, work and make a contribution to our society. Food manufacturing is an industry that can create even more jobs for our citizens and increase our food security. We can also look into reforming the education system by exposing students to new career paths and allowing them to pursue studies tailored to thriving and upcoming industries where there is a huge demand. Construction, mechanics, engineering, plumbing, and other vocational/technical education should be at the forefront as opposed to making people go into debt for an education that they may not be able to use in the future. My ultimate goal is to impact positive change on the world, and I’ve started that by living the best life I can every single day. Some days are good, some days are bad, but I am grateful for every moment of my experience so that I can share it with others and hopefully be a guide to them in their own way.

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There's nothing more exhilarating than living your most authentic life. BE WHO U WANNA BE. BE WHO U ARE. Listen I'm just so glad I have a whole fro again. The journey continues…💫💫💫 // Last night I had such a beautifully overwhelming response at the premiere of my film Black Hair. It's even been picked up in Baltimore, Maryland and Cameroon, Africa! Remember to go catch it if you can, and vote for BLACK HAIR as the People's Choice Award, and help me go to Baltimore! 🙌🏽🙏🏽 @trinidadandtobagorocks @ttfilmfestival — — Airing dates 🎬: Mon 24 Sept, 4.00pm, MovieTowne Tobago 🖤 Tue 25 Sept, 6.00pm, MovieTowne San Fernando — — Photo Creds: Model: @gabigabz_ Photographer: @shannonbrittophotography — — #model #international #caribbean #ttfilmfestival #trinidadfilmfestival #film #documentary #naturalhair #natural #melanin #queen #straighthairissotrashy #overit #movement #beautiful #fun #editorial #blackandwhite #photography #afro #naturalista #rain #scoutme

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My message is important because it is not just about hair. My message is letting people know that they should live their lives being comfortable in their own skin

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